This was written during my treatments a few months after my diagnosis.
To the doctor who gave me the news: You read me my biopsy results like I knew what you were saying. Remember you were speaking another language to me, words I never heard before, especially when some of the words are in Latin!
To the nurses at the Breast Center. Many of you have hearts of gold and I thank you for that, especially when I would start to cry and you responded with, "it's OK go ahead, you need to do that."
To the nurses and staff everywhere: Remember when I walked in with a smile on my face? I was pretending! Even when I was smiling I was hurting inside. Just days away from my double mastectomy and you acted like this is something you do every day, which IT IS!!!!! But not for me!!!!! Not for any of us walking in your office.
Thank you to my oncology and radiation doctors who talked with me with my clothes on. You respected my dignity and were considerate about how many times a doctor had examined my breasts in the time span of one week!
To my Plastic Surgeon: I was very nervous walking into your office. But you were so kind and explained everything to me and all the nurses were so sweet. You never made me feel like I was being rushed or you didn't have the time for all of my questions. Thank you.
To my OB/GYN. I have nothing but good words and praise for you!! Thank you for delivering two of my three girls and for taking such great care of me for so many years. You pushed me get the mammogram. You will be greatly missed in your retirement. Hopefully, your professionalism and kindness will be passed on.
To all the doctors and nurses who said, "I was lucky. I caught it early. I was going to be OK." I am so thankful for the early diagnosis and I know I am going to live and for that I am so grateful. However, it is not easy accepting the two "easy" options. 1. I can have two lumpectomies followed by weeks of radiation (and your breasts won't look or feel the same). Or 2. I can have a double mastectomy!
To my family and friends!! Your love and support was overwhelming. You made me feel so loved and I can't thank you enough for your prayers, phone calls, cards, texts and special gifts!! I hope you understood when I didn't call you back, it wasn't because I didn't want to, it was because I couldn't